2018 10 24

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infrared embellishments

yesterday of next year is so over it now I dress in midward

2018 10 25

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masochism & radiovision

2018 12 20

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Alien civilizations use time itself as a home to breach the great filter. Colonies of light extend in the space between initiation and destination before the birth of its existence, before reality could even render it.

2019 01 07

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A dimension of black opal in which all stars have dried up into glittering ash reflecting old light to each other like an expanding nervous system. I swim here in my porcelain vessel seeking images of those like me, but alas, I am not spontaneous enough to ever reach that light.

Vertex snow still falls upon the the corpses of forgotten projects. Their ghosts may be invisible, but time slowly reveals its form through decades of obscurity. Creative shelter requires a roof to give simulated planck flakes a form to recall.

2019 01 09

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Silence is transparency not darkness.

Darkness opposes the absence of something.

2019 01 11

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A dream sequencer plays philosophy backward.

2019 06 14

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We only write together with the mutuality of trimming both our hairs, holding each of our forms with the hope of it sitting the same as we see those around us. We are our peers back once more and we damage then repair the faults we make as a result in wanting the same for them.

Ideas are crushing themselves together by a shift in their uses as time passes, ones that couldn’t have occurred before fit in as much as those which have as the lines blur. Fantasy has always lived not what is to come but what has already happened.

2019 06 17

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in this world, children are born physically as capable fetuses which sometimes can resemble a flesh spinal cord isopod. when children are born they possess a physical spirit working with their body in synchronization with their pure ideals and outlook on the world. form is not coherent for them, but as the children grow through adolescence their bodies more resemble typical humanoids. however, they still possess energy from the spirit as it grows with them. eventually the spirit is disconnected entirely with the body of the humanoid and exists in its own mirror spirit realm experiencing some similar mental state and whatever it was possessing. these are like literal “tulpas” that have been existing in the humanoid society for as long as there was written history of them. these spirit tulpas all sport unique designs and forms describing their incarnate state, which when the fetus children are growing up can shapeshift into at any time. it is very rare to see those still have their childhood tulpa abilities remaining as they grow into adulthood but are mostly taken care of in conspiracy systems which concentrate those groups of people into experiencing simulated sub-realities. this all changes when one individual, in their early 30s, is revealed to have somehow taken the tulpas of thousands of children into himself collecting such a strong force and set of abilities to invoke an apocalyptic-like event that would have the world be reset into living in tandem with the spirit tulpa word permanently. as this individual is revealed, more and more people begin fighting for this new cause to live in a literal fantasy with their youthful self forever and become a follower. political and societal chaos ensues. the protagonist of this story is a 13-year old humanoid with the ability of physical regeneration. their tulpa is a cute, seed-like being with a single large eye poking out from the inside. they are set into a form of government child army which has been concealed by aesthetics and location, and begin their fight against the force of dimensional collapse.

2019 08 22

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2010.04 Soft Virtualization

Simulated universe that is from a “primordial future” / archived subjective reality

Takes form as an array of servers throughout earth with similarities to monoliths initiating humans

Aesthetics derived from my favorite shows and games at the time like the digital world in Code Lyoko or Half Life 2’s Synths, but far more specific in blending artificial and organic designs to a point there is very little that is recognizable in design/environments/creatures/etc.

Significant influence in structure from my dreams at the time which were written in journals.

2014.08 Moire Goth

Focus on the infinite in itself, oroborous

Maximalism as both god and the devil, horror vacui

Themes of digital paradise, libraries, borges influence

2018.04 Neon Apophenia

Careful fragility in the same time as violence

All stakes maintaining repression from maturity

Blanket identity through shells which develop their own sentience

Striking sudden lucidity

Self fulfilling prophecy

Fake surrealism

2019 09 03

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neon apophenia painting ideas:

the residual valley of deletionism: a piece that the artist recursively adds to every 5 minutes with what they had in the previous 5 minutes, a digital collage of illustrated debris

the perception of the tamer and their beast: a piece which documents the job of the observer and their place in the symbolic eclipse diagram. combines 3d and 2d elements to create a sort of planetarium visual of a 3d individual (tamer) in a sphere looking at a 2d painter of a “beast” dissected in all the ways this tamer might approach it

2019 09 04

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if the leading factor of those who consistently make significant progress in what they live for is that of a locked stream constantly generating inspiration, i wonder if "inspiration" as a need for the culture of modern humans could be inverted or replaced with something that contradicts itself. as in like - generalizing humanity as in constant need to some form of "inspiration" to be set out to find and use to complete any type of mental desire...so then trying to build a new culture for humans disconnected from any previous to their birth where illusions and tulpas of "inspiration" are inserted into their new society which instead focus on the opposite of conscience but instead of growing wise as a general construct in discovering more about "the self at its origin in spectrum to others" (aka becoming more of a self aware mental thought machine that does it's best to accept sadness in the most useful way it would of been in most dramatic experiences of life)

2019 09 08

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The Still of one Mechanical Tempest, Symbol Juicer, Inverted Passage, Ursa Xerox

2019 09 27

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vanea's constant cycle reflects a feeling that the present is hollow, and that relics of the future are also that of the past to be dissected. they were based on the idea that entities at the end of verse 2 in vanea will feel they have no future in verse 3 everyone either assumes it will be the time the world is erased or the world is revolutionized into a better state, so they look into the past in order to find fragments of what was thought of the future then by the unactivated potentials in the developments of scientists.

2019 10 02

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heaven and hell in time and architecture

2019 10 12

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under a freeway

fish

cold

gray

transformation into cotton

world is negative cultured

lights on off

2019 11 30

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they regurgitate god through the misguided speak of machines in resonance, wear costumes of ponopicon inspection houses staring back at their future. it isn't long now until they will all build a prison: many libraries containing a single typewriter to curate their holiness.

2020 01 17

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the world was still constructed enough to contain “sectors” or “biomes”, like narratives pass through it

monsters were strings that had properties related to how they are formed

one example being strings that wrap around people then wrap through another dimension at the same time causing those inside to evaporate

similar to earth but to much more of an extreme

deserts contain an incredible amount of ruined civilization as deserts are holding all possible ruined civilizations around the world and time

if one passes around the globe multiple times a black sea will eventually come only too them in the distance, which is a massive organism that stretches for continents and has a constant red sky

there lies many futuristic developments in the black sea to those that have mastered it, revealing futuristic sterile rooms that turn invisible and then to antarctice-like base establishments with cryptic design

past the black sea is mostly unknown, but it could either lead back to the start of history or to the game-world of string beings.

2020 03 10

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Tulpa + Ipsum Video Prologue (60 min)

opens with different slowly fading shots of fragmenting machinery backdropped by a blue sky

entirely silent

like the treasure planet spaceport scene but way slower and cryptic with the greeble on these satellites

suddenly as these fades are passing through distorted audio of something being described starts playing but extremely quiet like a whisper

muffled and hard to make out words, but sometimes you can hear references to coordinates and details of orbits. the reality of what is spoken is describing a simulated event within the pluslorem dyson sphere the moment it gained sentience outside of copying earth

these fading shots of massive machinery in a blue space continue until the quiet distorted voice stops

sudden cut to an individual's feet somewhere on either pangea materia or pluslorem walking

40 min of different fragmented (like the satellites) recordings of the world on pangea materia, either home video style / security camera / audio recordings with a spectrogram visualizing / etc

implies a world maybe similar to ours but with some strange language and words that are non existent or out of place in conversation

items and structures in distance of home recordings and security footage suggest a different kind of architecture and technology

think of like those episodes in lain where it switches between her cryptic melancholic interactions with the wired to then the descriptions of aliens or whatever with upbeat documentary music

after the 40 min a slow fade from the final clip's end frame of the sky without a sun begins

the fade reveals earth and pangea materia's form very slowly

as the scale increases and you realize earth the camera quickly jolts all the way around then back to a slow zoom (there are no stars in the sky so it is completely black)

for the next 5 min it is complete darkness with the blue atmosphere of earth's gradient slowly fading away in the corners of the screen

flickering lights start to reveal in an isolated spot the Pluslorem Dyson sphere also perfectly centered and massive

however very obscure and dark still only suggesting its true form

the zoom keeps going into pluslorem and it slowly fades back into darkness

for the next 5 min a very small zoom towards a white dot occurs

as the white dot comes closer and closer the camera starts to become more microscopic on the object (this object being the vaneac shell doro)

in the microscopic world that is kept being zoomed into it suggests microscopic architecture and technology on the surface

keeps zooming into this massive hole on the microscopic moon until it is all black again

2020 03 14

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original thoughts come from new sets and rules that are disconnected from current language

creating worlds as a framework for new ideas can often just re establish existing ones that have brought the circumstances of its existence into reality. the world must come from itself regardless of existing language, and through that new thoughts and ideas materialize

2020 03 30

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develop my strings page to have random entries that are generated with a markov system based on all previous texts.

one of the best things about hyperreal vr is that when you disconnect from it you perceive your own reality to be just as "object-able" as it would be in the experience. could be pretty powerful if simulation is like a therapy into guiding people to understand essentially interesting things about reality.